just want to write sth

     It is a long time I have not come to write sth,I don't know the reason,busy？lazy?or just there is no things worth writing.In fact,they are all not true,I am deep gloomy those days,I felt the  pressure of life is so deep.It is too hard,sometimes,it even made me out of breath.I don't know when this situation will come to good,when I will feel I am just very relax?so confused...

  As things goes as now,how am I after three years?Wether  I will reach my aim?

  If you doubt now ,what should I do,stop right now,and to find another one better?

so confused...

   Everytime I write ,I find I always left the bad mood here,I suddenly see why I have so long time no writing here,that is I do not want to waste the time writing my bad mood here.